Warrior's Moon A Love Story Page 8

  He stopped again and stood, this time on the wooded path headed toward their homes. At length, he simply asked, “Why?” He left the bag of flour balanced on his shoulder and put out both of his large, calloused hands. “Why? Why today? Pray. Help me understand why you would do something like this?”

  His tone had softened and for some reason that prompted the tears that had been threatening all morning to well into her eyes. She looked aside and tried to blink them away in embarrassment. She wasn’t usually a crier, but she’d felt this way for two days now. He reached into his pocket and took out a handkerchief, handed it to her, and said gently, “I’m sorry. Please forgive me. But I must know. Just tell me, Chani. It’s me, Peyton. We’re friends. Remember? Why are you worrying about marriage suddenly?”

  She shook her head and swiped sadly at her tears. “I have to, Peyton. Don’t you see? I’m only fifteen, but I am fifteen. And not a single other male in this village intrigues me. Not a one of them interests me enough to make me want to stop fooling with a sword and the neighbor boys and worry about how my hair looks. Doesn’t that seem like a problem to you? I’m supposed to get married to someone, sometime. And like it! Do you know what married couples do, Peyton? I don’t know about you, but those things concern me! And it might not be that far off. My mother truly was less than a year older than I am right this very moment. What am I going to do?” The last sentence came out sounding as troubled as she felt and it brought on a whole new spate of tears she hurried to mop.

  He was silent for so long without moving or doing anything that she finally looked up, worried, but all he was doing was standing there with his face changing from surprise to confusion to concern, to something that she wasn’t even sure what it was, but suspected he was trying not to laugh at her and it made her mad. At least that was better than heartbroken. In disgust, she turned and began to stride up the pathway to her cottage, but he caught her arm and stopped her.

  She spun back on him. “What? I haven’t the time to stand here and endure you laughing at me, Peyton. Let me go and see to things.”

  “No. Wait. Don’t be angry. I’m not laughing at you. I swear it. Well, I mean I am smiling at you. But only because you’re adorable. I’m not belittling you. You’re right. Marriage is a big thing. Huge. And truly, some of those things married people do are uhm, uh, concerning. Well, in truth, it’s more that I can hardly wait for those things, but I would guess I shouldn’t admit that, huh? Sorry.” She rolled her eyes and looked up at the sky. He quit smiling and loosened his hold on her arm and said, “What I’m trying to say, Chani, is that . . . ”

  He hesitated and she looked back at him and he finally said, “I don’t have an idea what I’m trying to say, Chani, except that . . . I think your hair is beautiful, just the way it is.”

  She quit pulling at her arm and looked up at him in confusion. “What?”

  “Your hair. I think your hair is magnificent. Especially when it all comes loose and hangs down your back like it does.”

  “Peyton, this isn’t about my hair. Haven’t you been listening to me?”

  “Yes, Chani, I have. But for the life of me, I don’t understand why all of a moment of a Tuesday morning you need to go inspect all of the local drivel for marriage. And what’s so wrong with the neighbor boys? You’ve never taken issue with us before. I thought you liked me. Is there suddenly a problem?”

  She stomped her bare foot. “Oh, Peyton, don’t you give me that! You know as well as I do that I near worship you. But, what does that have to do with marriage? Or my hair, for that matter?”

  “Pray, you tell me, girl. You’re the one who’s of a sudden desperately in need of matrimony. Where did this come from anyway?”

  She was all ready to snap back at him and then instead, let out a long breath and her shoulders slumped as she said, “The other night. At the tavern. They tried to tell that man to stay away from me. That I was Peyton Wolfgar’s girl. And that you would protect me from him. He didn’t listen, but that’s not the point. The point is. I’m not your girl. I’m more your little sister who gets on your nerves sixty three times a day, who you’re good to put up with and watch over. I’m nobody’s girl. And even that’s not the point. The point is, there isn’t anyone round here whose girl I’d care to be.

  “Other than you and Tristan, or maybe Tommy Bertram, but he’s simply like a charming puppy, other than you two, I don’t even care that I’m nobody’s girl, ‘cause they’re all morons and dimwits. But that’s not good. What if I turn out like Ingrande Fergson? She’s getting to where she can scarce get round by herself, but there’s no one to watch over her. And folks think she’s pure strange living all alone all these years with only that ugly cat. That cat’s gonna die and then where will she be? I don’t want to be like that.” She paused and looked down, and added sadly, “But I don’t want to have to marry a dimwit.”

  She stopped and took a deep breath and looked up at him wishing the tears would just stop already and was thoroughly taken aback when he set her flour sack down, came close and wrapped both arms round her and started to laugh. A soft, warm, deep chuckle that she could hear right through his chest that rested under her ear as he held her. She didn’t know whether to be thoroughly offended or just bask in his hug and trust the knowledge that he would never laugh at her mean spiritedly.

  While she was still wondering how to feel, he pulled her even closer and said, “Chani, Chani, Chani. What’s a body to do about you?”

  She sniffled and shook her head against his chest. “I don’t know. Even I don’t know what to do about myself.”

  He laughed softly again and said, “I don’t know either, girl, but I do know that if you go off and wed some squatty, corpulent dimwit just so you don’t end up like Ingrande, you’ll break my heart into ten million shards and I’ll pure waste away until I die with loneliness. They’ll bury me up next to your father and your baby sister.”

  She completely stilled in his arms for a long, long moment and then finally, pulled away from him slightly so she could look up at him in absolute confusion. What under heaven did he mean by that? He simply looked down at her with those sweet, brown eyes that she wanted to lose herself in and then finally, totally at a loss as to his meaning, she asked, “What does that mean, Peyton?”

  He gave her a smile that seemed almost a little sad and gently smoothed a tear off of her cheek bone with his thumb as he asked, “Do you truly not understand what it means, Chani? You know me better than I know myself.”

  Shaking her head, she sighed tiredly. “I don’t know what I understand just at this moment, Pey. All I know is that this whole growing up notion frightens me immeasurably and the thought of facing all of it without you makes me want to magically turn back time until I’m seven again and you’re making mud pastries with me at the pond. Wouldn’t it be delightful if we didn’t have to grow up and make decisions?”

  “No. Because I do want to grow up with you, Chani. Truly, I want to grow old with you. You needn’t face anything without me. Why would you? We’re best friends. That’s what friends do. They stay together. They cover the chinks in each other’s armor and watch over each other. Always.”

  “But what about marriage, Peyton? You must recognize that we can’t simply be best friends forever. What would our spouses say? You’ve seen how distraught Mrs. Darnell becomes when her husband goes drinking and begins to converse with that blonde woman he almost married instead of her. I don’t believe there’s truly room for a husband and a best friend in a marriage. ‘Tis about one too numerous for a couple. It couldn’t be harmonious.”

  His voice softened. “What if the best friend was the husband? Wouldn’t that be harmonious?” She was searching his eyes almost desperately, trying to figure out what he was intimating and he seemed to understand that as he went on, “Chani, is there no way you could ever consider marrying me? Someday. Not right now. When you’ve had a chance to grow up a portion. Certainly, you look grown up. Unbelievably so, but fifteen is
quite young. Is there no way we could simply keep on being best friends and someday go beyond that?” He grinned at her and added, “You wouldn’t have to marry a dimwit. Or grow old with only an ugly cat.”

  She hesitated for a minute while she tried to figure out if he was saying the same thing she was hearing and then asked, “But, Peyton, aren’t we truly too good of friends to get married? I mean, we know everything about each other. Even the dreadful stuff. And indeed I do get on your nerves sixty three times a day. You can’t deny it.”

  “Chani, who has the strongest marriage we know?”

  “Your parents. Why?”

  “Well, don’t you think they’re best friends and know even the yucky stuff?” She nodded. “And you only get on my nerves seven times a day and that’s actually two times less than I get on your nerves and it makes for interesting conversation. Don’t you think? We still seem to enjoy being with each other enough to do it every single day for hours and hours.”

  She was thoroughly surprised with where this discussion was going, but finally got brave enough to ask, “But what about the marriage part, Peyton? The only in marriage part. Wouldn’t we want to be able to someday do that kind of thing with whoever we marry? Otherwise, we’d never have any children. Don’t you ever want children? We don’t even kiss each other. We don’t even hold hands.”

  At that, for the first time in this conversation, Peyton looked uncomfortable and Chantaya felt an incredible disappointment settle into her stomach as he actually blushed and then looked skyward for a second before he answered, “About that . . . ” He still hesitated and then looked back down at her, gave her a crooked smile and said, “Uh, Chantaya, would you be completely disgusted with me if I said that, uh . . . On second thought, maybe I shouldn’t be quite that honest with you. How about if we try this? Perhaps we could simply keep being friends like we always have been and maybe, in time, we’ll decide that we want to kiss each other.”

  She shook her head. “Peyton, if we’re going to actually have this conversation at all, shouldn’t we be absolutely honest with each other? Always? There’s no way I’m going to talk about someday marrying and in the same discussion agree not to always tell each other the truth. That couldn’t make for a strong couple.”

  “For the most part, ’tis true, Chantaya. But there probably comes a point where people who love each other, but aren’t actually wed, shouldn’t speak concerning some things because it could be dangerously provocative. I’m not sure if you comprehend what I mean. But there’s also a point where maybe we shouldn’t speak of some things because it might frighten one of us.”

  “Which one of us?”

  “You one of us.”

  “Why wouldn’t it frighten you?”

  He gave her that grin again. “Uh, for the reason that . . . Uhm, remember when I said I’m rather looking forward to some of those things in marriage? I suppose I lean toward being a rogue, because I, uh, I imagine those things are going to be wonderful! Sorry. Just being honest.”

  She could feel her eyes widen and said hastily, “I think you’re right. Maybe we shouldn’t talk about this. One of us is definitely frightened.”

  He put a gentle hand to her cheek and touched her softly, then shook his head. “Try not to be, Chani. None of this should frighten us. It should make us happy and excited. We do love each other. This isn’t anything more than the natural progression of a lifelong friendship. We know each other. We know we can trust each other, no matter what. We like each other. We have fun with each other. In truth, is there even any other option? Can you truly say you could walk away from me someday without looking back?”

  Leaning her cheek into the palm of his hand, she thought about that and then met his eyes and shook her head. Tears welled into her eyes again as she whispered, “Never.”

  That made him smile as he whispered back, “Me either.”

  For a long, long moment, they stood there looking into each others eyes in the dappled sunshine of the path and then Peyton slowly lowered his head and gently kissed her once on the mouth, ever so softly. Raising his head, he leaned close again and kissed her once more on the soft spot of her temple and said, “See, it might not be too bad.”

  Chapter 6

  Her mother spoke to her three times before walking over to stand before her and wave her hand back and forth in front of her face. “Chantaya, pray tell me, are you in there?”

  Snapping out of her reverie, Chantaya nodded. “Yes, Mother. What? I’m sorry. I’m afraid my mind is elsewhere.”

  Drily, her mother said, “Yes, I can see that. Where is your mind, may I inquire?”

  “Oh, it’s uh, I’m just thinking. What did you want?”

  “I’m just wondering what happened to the wash basin? ‘Twas here earlier. Pray, do you know where it went?”

  “No. I haven’t an idea. You didn’t put it somewhere?”

  “Ah, here it is in the cupboard. Why is it in the cupboard? We never put it in the cupboard.”

  Chantaya didn’t answer again because her mind had gone back to the conversation she and Peyton had had earlier that still seemed surreal somehow. Could it truly be that she and he were to someday wed? And would kissing always be as nice as it had been this afternoon? Maybe the things married people did wouldn’t be frightening at all. She checked her hair one more time in the looking glass. He would be here any moment to walk her to the tavern. For some reason, that made her unbelievably nervous.

  SSSS

  Peyton dropped Chantaya off at the kitchen door of the tavern and then turned back around and headed for Sir Mordecai’s. He had to ask him some questions and maybe the time walking would help Peyton clear his head. There had to be a way to marry Chantaya and still be able to serve the kingdom.

  He found himself near in a daze as he traveled for thinking back on kissing her today. He’d wanted to do that for a shamefully long time and it was every bit as nice as he’d imagined. Isabella would crown him if she knew he’d been thinking that way about her daughter. He wished he’d reached for Chantaya’s hand while he was walking her to the tavern, although, that may have frightened the poor girl more than he already had today. He should never have admitted to so looking forward to marital relations, even if she had asked him to be honest.

  The whole conversation had gone unbelievably smoother than he’d expected. He’d known that discussion was coming for literally years now, but had no idea it would come to a head this morning because of some stranger from the Forks. Chantaya had been amazingly funny, even for her breaking down and crying because she didn’t want to have to marry one of the frumpy locals or grow old with only an ugly cat. He strode along the forest trail with a sense of absolute euphoria that was foolish in light of his questions for Mordecai. Still, she had basically agreed to some day marry him! ‘Twas the greatest dream of his whole life and he wanted to jump logs and spin in circles and shout it to the tops of the trees. Chantaya Kincraig would someday be his wife!

  Now he just had to figure out what to do about serving the king.

  Mordecai was out in the pen with his horses as Peyton strode up and Peyton had the sense he always had that Mordecai had been aware of his approach long before he got there. That alertness was part of the reason he’d become legendary as a knight and Peyton was working on learning it as well. If he was going to do this at all, he was going to do it well.

  His old friend turned to him and then smiled and asked, “Peyton, what has you so energetic this day, lad?” Peyton grinned, but didn’t admit anything.

  They’d been working together for over an hour before Peyton finally asked the question that burned within him, “Sir Mordecai, do any of the knights ever take wives?”

  Turning, Mordecai studied him for a long moment before answering, “I wondered if your attitude had something to do with young Chantaya. Yes, the knights sometimes take wives. Often, in fact. In truth, marriage makes them better at it. More focused and steady and driven. There’s something about defending the love
of one’s life that tempers the warrior’s heart. That’s not to say a maid isn’t sometimes a distraction as well, but it certainly makes victory a greater passion.”

  Peyton heaved a huge sigh of relief, but then wondered aloud, “Then why did you never marry, Sir Mordecai?”

  The old man turned back to his ancient horse and Peyton wondered for a minute if he hadn’t heard him and then Mordecai said, “Oh, but I did, Peyton.” He turned back to Peyton with a heartbroken smile. “Christiana Ferron. The fairest maiden in all the land. At least, to me she was. She had hair of the purest gold and a heart to match it. I was much older than her, but she loved me dearly anyway.”

  Peyton waited in silence, knowing the rest of the story would eventually come and that it wouldn’t have a happy ending since Mordecai was here in the woods all alone these long years. At length, Mordecai went on sadly, “We’d tried for years to have a child and finally, she was expecting our first. No two people were ever more in love or more thrilled to soon be parents. But it didn’t turn out as we’d dreamed. She died giving birth to the most beautiful, perfect wee blonde daughter. A fair replica of her pretty mother.”

  “And the babe?”

  “Sweet Eliana. She was the light of my life, she was, after her mother passed away.” He paused and looked away again before saying, “The plague swept through Valais the winter she was four. I did everything a knight knew to do, but I was no match for such a disease. She died in my arms when the crocuses were just breaking through the last of the snow.”

  Peyton put a big hand on his friend’s shoulder. “I’m sorry.”